Pieces

Day by day we gradually grow and sometimes we forget how far we have really come. For the longest time I have been staring forward waiting for this “AHA” kind of moment. That moment people talk about when things just click and everything makes sense; the good, the bad, the ugly. And to be honest with you all I was becoming skeptical of this magical moment I’ve been convinced is real. I’ve been waiting and waiting for this moment and my patience was starting to run low, but then something magical really did happen, I started living.

This definitely did not happen over night and sometimes I still struggle to wake up and be present. But hey we are human beings and sometimes you have to fail. Maybe once, maybe a million times. But I think we all need to be more understanding and kind to ourselves when it comes to growing and changing into the people we are meant to be. It's not always the easiest thing. We need to stop comparing our growth to others. Comparison just steals our happiness and ability to see the progress that we’ve made. And the way that someone else is growing is most likely not the exact way you need to be growing at this moment.

My advice to you is stop waiting because whatever it is you are waiting for, whatever your “AHA” moment is, it’s not going to come and find you. Honestly you will probably run into it when you least expect it. That’s how it happened for me anyway. For a while I lost the happy go lucky girl I really enjoyed being. Sometimes I thought she was gone forever, but day by day I found little pieces of her, some old and some new. And now the pieces seem to fit together better than before. My moment wasn’t a single moment at all actually. My moment was in my baptism when I realized that there is a steadfast love that has been staring me in the face my whole life. My moment is sitting with my roommates in our living room laughing until we are gasping for air. My moment is in the silence of my room while I write. My moment is that change I feel at my core, the deep desire to sincerely love the quickly passing moments of my life. My moment is when people tell me I seem really happy because that’s the best kind of compliment there is. And I truly am happy. But the biggest moment I’ve had is this substantial feeling of joy and relief because this is the most I’ve felt like myself in a long time. That’s what I think it’s all about, is finding yourself and when you feel like something is missing that just means there is a new piece for you to find.

I hope you all embrace your “AHA” moments, sometimes they are hidden in the smallest part of our days but no matter how small they are they are each a tiny victory that you have earned the right to claim.

With Love,

Jade Marie