The Concept Of Happiness

I’ve been having writers block for a while and I always get so frustrated with myself. Like come on Jade you honestly can’t think of one thing to write about? This is actually quite amusing when I think about it, because I have many sleepless nights because of the marathon run my mind is on. The only reason I fall asleep by 4 a.m. is because my minds racing exhausts itself. My thoughts mostly consist of my dreams, my fears of not reaching them, and of never fully capturing my minds concept of happiness. Happiness though isn't really something tangible; you can’t reach out and grab it, it is simply a concept. And the concept of happiness is for us to define. So happiness can be a journey or a destination; that is your choice. You can define happiness as a point where your life meets all the criteria you want, a partner, dream job, nice house, etc. Lately I have been so guilty of this, telling myself I’ll be happy when I do this, when this specific thing happens. I’ve had a very crippling mindset lately letting the unknown and uncertainty of life in a way stunt me from living. The concept of happiness that I have created has four walls and a ceiling, it is restricted and confined; it has no where to grow or expand. It is nothing less and nothing more than what I have placed into the confines of my imaginary box. I have essentially limited my happiness, I have limited my opportunity to find it.

So I am making my New Years Resolution to tear down the walls and blow off the ceiling of this idealization I have convinced myself is the key to my hearts content. I strive to live 2016 in a way where happiness is my mindset, where my circumstances will not dictate my mood, but where they push me to dig deeper inside myself to expand my mind. My happiness will be in the small moments, the silent moments, the big moments, and the loud moments. Happiness will be mine to choose throughout my journey. The rest I truly believe will come together, and if I reach the destination I think I’m after GREAT, but if I don’t I am determined to be living in such a way where that will be okay. I hope that I have become a person who can see that my, “shortcomings,” can only grow and strengthen me and if anything inspire me. I think I will always find happiness in a life where I am growing, becoming stronger, and being inspired by the life I am living. So here is to a new year of happiness that we have the power to define. A year where happiness has no bounds or limitations, just endless opportunities to be found in unexpected places.

With Love,

Jade Marie